Today I feel off...ugh. Seriously, like I just want to speak in ridiculous gibberish and get out some frustration: gsaefvorinvajkosdrngvjosndrjdfnsdjf smadf sdm, msdf vvfvk dfkv fd...meh, didn't help.
I am itching....NO, going crazy with desire, to get out for a good run. I feel so deprived in that area and it sucks. It gets me down in the "Oscar the Grouch" dumps.
I went swimming last week, and it was fun, but it wasn't enough. I think tonight I am going to do the 30 day shred and just avoid any of the foot activities. Or maybe I just need to hunker down and bust my butt swimming. Or maybe I just need to go home and go to bed. Ugh, I'm indecisive.
Don't get me wrong, I don't want, nor will I, put pressure on my foot to heal faster (and essentially lead to not healing). I want to give it all the time in the world. I want to baby the shit out of it so I can get back to running and start that goal I made last month of running 12 5K's in 12 months. But I am getting impatient. Thursday will be the one month mark since I sprained my ankle. I definitely did not think it would still be this stiff and swollen.
Last night I wanted to see what my foot looks like in my wedges...ugh, not good!
And on top of my self-loathing and pity over my foot, I have a list of things I want to accomplish and I don't seem to be making any headway. I want to sit down and create a hard core budget, one that lists out all of our bills, monthly income, what have you. Since our income has increased, we need to get smarter about it. I want to finish some projects that I have started. I want to clean and organize and purge crap that we just don't need to hang on to.
Oh yeah, and I might as well add the painful pimple growing right below my nose to my list...Did I miss something? Am I still in high school?
I just have some things in life that I want to get figured out, and I kind of feel like I am at a stand still right now. And I am kind of over feeling that way.
So yeah, I really don't bitch and moan too much, but today was a good day to get it off my chest.
And I suppose now I need to be smart about it and get productive tonight!