Oh I figured I would fail at updating weekly. Life has just been busy but I also tried really hard to relax. And now....we are here! Baby is taking her sweet sweet time but we should have a baby by end of day today, or early tomorrow! Crazy!
And as I sit here, in the hospital room, nearing the end, my ridiculous hormones have taken over and I mourn the fact that I will no longer have my little bump. Don't get me wrong, there were plenty of miserable times, plenty of times where I ached, hurt, felt ill from top to bottom. But I also tried to stay positive and funny, and make sure to bond with my bump. And I did! Which is so outrageously cool!
I read enough in the beginning to know that not all people do bond with their bump. There is the end goal, and they focus on that the entire time. I figured that would be me. That I would just always focus on the light at the end of the tunnel. But once I figured out a sleeping schedule, what foods did and did not agree with me, and how I could get comfortable, I was able to truly bond. And I thank God for the blessing.
And going into the labor process is a whole mix of crazy and scary again, and I have armed myself with enough knowledge to know that yet again, bonding can take some time. You are meeting this stranger that has been inhabiting your body. I am armed with the knowledge of that, but also the knowledge that with time, things come around, and I will be so blessed to have this little girl in my life! But I know too I will miss having her all to myself and I just would have never imagined myself saying that. It is crazy how me evolve...and thank God we do.
And I know there are people who do it alone, and do just fine, but without a doubt in my mind, I could not have done it. When I was miserable, my husband was there with the biggest smile, the biggest joke to crack, the biggest hug, whatever I needed. And it was constantly about me. We generally both strive to make life easier for the other but this was definitely a time where I relied on him more heavily then he could rely on me.
I honestly could not imagine going through this with another person. It's truly ridiculous what this man has done for myself and our unborn child. He will no doubt be an amazing father. I can not wait to see him in that role.
So there we are! A quick little wrap up. We'll see you on the flip side:)